Wednesday, November 26, 2008

7th Monthsary

Is he GOD-given,
From up above the heaven,
Until time will end?

At first, it was tough
To know if it was a bluff
GOD made sure 'twas not

All the guys out there
No one will ever compare
Nor will someone dare

Cody, my honey
You are my one-and-only
GOD gave you to me

Seven means perfect
Our GOD who has no blemish
A love to cherish

I wanted something different. I got this idea from C.Beth from The One-Minute Writer. Instead of one single haiku, I've made a 5-stanza haiku. Is that possible? Well, I think so since I've done it already. hahaha!

Anyway, this blog is dedicated to my ever-loving partner, Cody. I can hardly wait to marry you, darling. You just make me feel so special. After all that we've been through, all I can say is that GOD always makes a way for everything. Everything that is according to HIS Will. Truly, you are HIS Perfect Will for me. I am certain about that.

"Love does not answer why or how, but only when, and the answer is always the same: NOW AND FOREVER."

One of the beautiful things Cody told me:

"I wasn't seeking love and then decided to built on it with you. You're a Heavenly blessing and love just happened. It happened because of everything I desire in you. My first love. My only love."

Can I just float in the clouds now? hehehe! I've never been the 'first love' (GOD is our first love...a given! hahaha). Way back then, while I was treated a side dish, I was treated a trash, too. But now, for the very first time in my life, I was treated as GOD's princess.

The only foundation we want for our relationship is CHRIST.

Seven beautiful months and going stronger and further. This is the life worth living. Life has its own bumps but GOD intends happiness for each one of us. Here and everywhere. The Purpose-Driven Life.

I've received an insightful text message today from Pastora Girlie:

"Some people watch things happen, some people wonder what happened. But some people make it happen."

So which one are you?

Just like how the song goes...

"Love moves in mysterious ways. It's always so surprising when love appears over the horizon."

When we choose to be pessimistic, the devil will prove what he can do. But when we choose to be optimistic, GOD will prove HIS ultimate power over all HIS creation.

You may not see how GOD wants it but you can trust in HIS unfailing love. When HE moves, it can be mysterious but it will always be surprising coz HE will make you see life in a beautiful light.

I never stopped believing in LOVE. Love is my fuel. GOD is Love.

If I had to live my life again, I'd still choose to end up with Cody. He is a beautiful man. And I thank my beautiful GOD for him. GOD is Cody's past, present and future.

For all my readers, I will leave you with a quote sent to me by my friend Ate Lenlen:

"Life is full of uncertainties. We'll never know when our time on Earth is up til it's over. So take many pics, laugh much, take time to look up at the stars, sing loudly, smile a lot, love like you've never been hurt coz every 60-second you spend is a minute of happiness you'll never get back."

To my Cody, words are really not enough to tell you how I feel. A beautiful covenant that I have, with GOD, for you is everlasting. If Eve had Adam, and Abigail had David, Honesty found her home in the very heart of GOD with Cody. I will never want to lose you coz if I do, there's no one else in the world I'd rather be with but you. GOD will make a way for us. ONLY BELIEVE. My honey, my darling, my sweetheart, my sweetness, my sweetie, my lifetime partner, HAPPY 7TH MONTHSARY! More monthsaries to come for us. hahaha!

TO MY ONE-AND-ONLY FATHER IN HEAVEN, YOU ARE MY ALL IN ALL! I GIVE GLORY TO YOUR NAME! YOU DESERVE THE HIGHEST PRAISE AND THE UTMOST WORSHIP FROM ALL OF US. THANK YOU, MY BELOVED DADDY. I DEDICATE THANKSGIVING DAY TO YOU. APART FROM YOU, I AM NOTHING.

Enjoy life. Release stress. Trust GOD.

GOD KNOWS WHAT HE IS DOING. GOD HAS A PURPOSE FOR EVERYTHING. LOVE MORE WITH EVERY MINUTE GIVEN TO YOU. GOD BLESS YOU ABUNDANTLY!

Make an impact. Make a difference. Make a ripple. Tip the scale.

ALL THE GLORY IN THIS RELATIONSHIP BELONGS TO GOD ALONE!!!

P.U.S.H.

When you feel GOD's love, OVERFLOW!

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Unbelievably Amazing

Earlier at service, the sermon was about 'Amazing Grace.'

Then my memory brought me back to the time when I was in sin. After I backslid, sins came running to me, demons rejoicing and world's problems came tumbling over me.

My memory also brought me back to men who abused me. Men who tried to control me. Men who just wanted my body. Men who verbally and mentally abused me. Men who used me financially. Men who just didn't respect me as a precious daughter of GOD.

No grudges though. Forgiven and forgotten.

GOD's undying love, neverending faithfulness and amazing grace led me back HOME.

Ok that was my introduction. hahaha! Now, here's my climax. hahaha!

CLIMAX: My past life can be defined in one word: boys. It revolved around boys. I had plenty of crushes like a normal highschool girl has. I had plenty of boyfriends. Some serious, some weren't. Because of the certain desire of having the 'love of my life', I drowned myself into sin. I even had a boyfriend who always wanted me to drink alcohol with him and his friends. When I compare my life now and back then, I would say it was a battle of good and evil. Sin got me by using a 'boy' but GOD got me by using a 'guy.' I got tired. I was depressed and because of the faith instilled by my parents in me when I was a youngster, I turned to GOD. I sought HIM with all my heart. I changed for HIM. GOD is the love of my life.

That's another introduction. hahaha!

The desire of having a lifetime partner still remained in my heart. I knew I was going to meet him in GOD's Perfect Timing. While I was waiting anxiously (hahaha), I decided to just surrender it to GOD and told HIM that even if HE doesn't give me a husband, I will still love HIM with all of me. I told HIM that I will glorify HIM with my relationship if ever HE gives me my helper.

Months after that, GOD gave me a friend. This friend helped me grow spiritually and emotionally as an individual. This friend helped me grow in character. As I was growing, this friend was growing with me, too. Until now, this friend continues to grow with me. Our strong foundation is CHRIST. This friend became my best friend. He, then, became my special someone, my boyfriend...my fiance´. His beautiful name is Cody Lee Howe (pronounced as how).

Cody never left me. Not even once. He was a very faithful friend. He desires for my spiritual and emotional growth. I can say now that after 11 months, we definitely grew and still growing together as a couple. It became all clear to me now that he is GOD's Perfect Choice for me. Well, I've already known that last April. hehehe! It's just amazing to look back and say, "Wow I've really grown with him. Now I know why GOD gave him to me." After 11 months of being friends and after 7 months of being a couple, I am still deeply in love with him every second of my breathing life. Actually, my love for him grows stronger each day. It's a cliche I know but it is really what I feel. I am in love with him like the very first day I realized that I love him unconditionally 7 months ago. But more than that day, of course. Infinity plus one. hehehe!

I am just so amazed at how Cody treats me with so much love and respect. He tells and shows me things that no other guy in my past had told and shown me. Earlier this afternoon, he made me love him more deeply. How? Well, here's a peek at how our conversation went...

me: you know i'm very excited to marry you for so many reasons but the number one reason would be because of love
cody: me too. because i feel you're the only one for me. you're made for me and i just desire you
me: i love you and you are made for me
cody: not because i had a dream of marriage. it's because of YOU. i love YOU, my blessing.
me: awww that's so sweet of you to say
cody: only you have invoked these feelings in me. i've never talked like this before. and i don't feel like i need to impress you. rather, i desire to satisfy you. not because you demand it, but because you appreciate it. i see the real and unique beauty in you and i want that in my life. we'll be happy in God's grace.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails..."

FYI, I am Cody's first love and he is mine as well. Of course, next to GOD. That should be a given. hehehe!

One of my heart's desires is to glorify GOD alone in my relationship with Cody. I desire to encourage the singles out there to wait and be patient for GOD knows what's best for everyone. I also desire to inspire married couples to always communicate, as what Cody believes. Humility is an effective ingredient in life. Love GOD first, love others second. Then everything else will follow.

Matthew 22:37-39
Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'

GOD BLESS YOU ABUNDANTLY! BE ALL-OUT PATIENT! GOD WILL NEVER DISAPPOINT YOU! GOD BE WITH YOU ALWAYS!

Matthew 6:33 (KJV)
"But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."

ALL THE GLORY BELONGS TO GOD ALONE!!!

P.U.S.H.

When you feel GOD's love, OVERFLOW!

Monday, November 17, 2008

A Gift from Heaven

Write your dreams, goals, revelations and visions in life.
~ I am truly blessed to have a boyfriend who is VERY patient to stick with me through thick and thin. I can't even describe how I'm so grateful to have him in my life. He is truly a GOD-given gift. He gives me unconditional love. I have been transformed but I have to admit that I have a struggle that I should get rid of. I need emotional stability. In the process of going through this struggle and growing in CHRIST, Cody firmly decided 10 months ago to love me for the rest of his life and to patiently deal with me. Oh I am not easy to handle. hahaha! CAUTION:HOT! hahaha! jk Cody has been given a beautiful revelation while they were playing a certain board game. He proposed to me earlier to write certain goals/rules for our relationship to remind us about our character growth. I was then reminded of a Scripture verse I've read...

Habakkuk 2:2 (NIV)
Then the LORD replied:
"Write down the revelation
and make it plain on tablets
so that a herald may run with it.

Habakkuk 2:2 (NKJV)
Then the LORD answered me and said:
Write the vision
And make it plain on tablets,
That he may run who reads it.

If you fail to plan, you plan to fail. BUT always remember that with all our plans, GOD's Perfect Will always prevails. So with all our plans, we should always consider what the LORD wills for us.

James 4:15
Instead, you ought to say, "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that."

Here is a song that has been on my mind for some time now...



Lyrics:

I was down my dreams were wearing thin
When you're lost where do you begin
My heart always seemed to drift from day to day
Looking for the love that never came my way

Then you smiled and I reached out to you
I could tell you were lonely too
One look then it all began for you and me
The moment that we touched I knew that there would be

(chorus) two less lonely people in the world
And it's gonna be fine
Out of all the people in the world
I just cant believe you're mine
In my life where everything was wrong
Something finally went right
Now there's two less lonely people
In the world tonight

Just to think what I might have missed
Looking back how did I exist
I dreamed, still I never thought I'd come this far
But miracles come true, I know cause here we are

(chorus)
Tonight I fell in love with you
And all the things I never knew
Seemed to come to me somehow
Baby, love is here and now there's
(repeat chorus)

I would love to explain every stanza since some of the words/phrases used do not impress me hahaha!

1st stanza - We all long for that certain partner. A special void given by GOD reserved for a special person. A person who will be the closest to us. Well, I came from a heartache when I returned to GOD. GOD used my pain to win me back. Even if I was given that joy from GOD, deep in my heart, I was still yearning for my future lifetime partner (as we all are and did for married couples).

2nd stanza - I would like to acknowledge that GOD reached out to me first before I found my 'one.'

3rd stanza - Of course, we all need a helper, as what GOD desires for us. GOD wants the BEST for us. I was very satisfied with the solitude but when GOD gave me Cody, HE made me see a different light. A partner in flesh. Cody, you are the one. Out of all the billions of people in the world, I just can't believe you're mine! You are so amazing! I don't know what I did to deserve you but you are just so perfect for me.

4th stanza - This part is for GOD. HE is my yesterday, today and forever.

5th stanza - Of course, I do not believe in 'falling in love' so let's remove that. hahaha! Let's probably change that with 'grow in love' to make it more real and heart-to-heart.

Oh c'mon Cody, don't laugh at me. hehehe! Yeah I need to explain. I like the song because I would like you to know that you filled that special void in my heart that only you can fill even when GOD already completes me. You are my beautiful bonus from GOD. The Creator of Marriage.

I am amazed on how GOD uses my relationship with my honey. Cody just told me earlier how his friend is amazed at how we handle our relationship patiently and in a Godly way (no sex involved). I am inspired to do more for GOD. For GOD to consume me and take all of me to glorify HIMSELF!

FATHER, I AM YOURS!

ALL THE GLORY IN THIS RELATIONSHIP BELONGS TO GOD ALONE!!!

P.U.S.H.

When you feel GOD's love, OVERFLOW!

Sunday, November 16, 2008

the simplest i can do is make a poem for you

I don't know what
makes me
stay...

But my love for you
grows stronger
each day.

I will never
love this way
again.

You are what
my heart
longs for.

My eternal
partner.

MY CODY!

Make an impact. Make a difference. Make a ripple. Tip the scale.

GOD BLESS YOU ABUNDANTLY! GOD LOVES YOU ALWAYS!

ALL THE GLORY IN THIS RELATIONSHIP BELONGS TO GOD ALONE!!!

P.U.S.H.

When you feel GOD's love, OVERFLOW!

Sunday, November 2, 2008

I'll be there for you



Lyrics:

When the night falls on the world
And you're sad because I'm far away
Just remember you're my girl
Baby, think of how you feel today

All I know is our love will go on
You can dream me there with you all night long
When you need my heaven simply close your eyes
And keep your heart strong

Chorus

I'll be there for you till the earth stops turning
Playing in your heart like love songs do
I'll be there for you like a candle burning
Just believe it's true I'll be there for you

We got awful close of so fast
It's hard to say our goodbyes
Now I've found you girl at last
I can't forget you If I try
When I'm awake or sleeping you'll be mine
You're the one love I'll keep you fill up my mind
I will count the hours till you're here with me for all time

I'll be there for you till the earth stops turning
Playing in your heart like love songs do
I'll be there for you like a candle burning
Just believe it's true I'll be there for you

When you're troubled I'll be there when you're sad I will be there
When you're laughing I'll be there Just think of me and I'll be there
I'll be there coz you're my star I'll be anywhere you are
When you're hurt I'll feel it too and If you leave I'll go with you
I'll be there for you baby count on me I'll be there for you there for you

Repeat chorus

Bridge
I'll be there for you anytime at all
If you need me I'll go to the wall
You'll be in my mind you'll be in my heart
When I'm close to you when we're far apart ohhhh
I'll be there for you

~~~~~

This is a song sung by Sarah Geronimo and Howie Dorough. It's pop so I don't know if you would like it, honey. hehehe! Hope you do coz I'll always be there for you. Also, I'm sorry for the too many baby's in there. hahaha! This is a fun song.

Cody, just please know that I'll be there for you and this song can simplify my feelings for you. There's more that I can't put into words coz my love for you is deeper than all the words (combined) in the world.

I miss your voice that tickles my eardrums. I miss your laugh that stimulates my senses. I miss your smell that fills up my mind with thoughts of loving you all my life. I miss your smile that brightens up my world. I miss your eyes that shine with gentleness and sincerity. I miss your hair that thrill the palm of my hands. I miss your nose that stands out with all its glory. I miss your body --- the sexiest body ever. hehehe! I know I can think of something better than that. Like SEXY? hahaha!

Well, I can literally say now that...I MISS YOU!

Truly, GOD's ways and thoughts are higher than mine coz when HE gave you to me, I knew then that what I have is more than what I've desired, wanted, dreamed of and expected. GOD is so beautiful and so are you, my love.

My forever vow to you:

1 Corinthians 13:4-8
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails..."

My covenant will always remain. Our GOD shall bind us forever.

I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH, MY CODY!!!

To my readers, remember 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 always. Divorce should never exist in your minds. When you give up now, you will always be giving up for the rest of your life. GOD BLESS YOUR RELATIONSHIPS!

GOD BLESS YOU ABUNDANTLY! GOD BE WITH YOU ALWAYS!

Make an impact. Make a difference. Make a ripple. Tip the scale.

ALL THE GLORY IN THIS RELATIONSHIP BELONGS TO GOD ALONE!!!

P.U.S.H.

When you feel GOD's love, OVERFLOW!