My love for Cody

"You can't make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth."

~~~Before I met Cody, I liked another guy so much. Then I did everything positive for him to notice me. It didn't work. He ignored me. I've learned to focus more on God and surrender my lovelife to Him and prepared myself to be the best friend and best wife to my future husband. When I finally met Cody, we started as very good friends. Because of him, I've learned a lot of beautiful things. I've learned patience and respecting others as much as I respect myself. God used and is using Cody to make me a more beautiful person. We've been through a lot but he never left me. He is the only man who never left me inspite of the negative attitude that I have but I don't have anymore. hehehe! After months of friendship, Cody and I started to walk in love. Grow in love. It was and is beautiful. I am in awe until now. He made me feel special and worthy of a man's love. Now, I am contented with Cody and I can hardly wait to walk down that aisle and see him waiting for me at the altar with God's beautiful blessing and anointing upon us.

"The measure of love is when you love without measure. In life, there are very rare chances that you'll meet the person you love and loves you in return. So once you have it, don't ever let go. The chance might never come your way again."

~~~True true true. True love is immeasurable. Whenever I ask Cody if he loves me less, he always tells me that he couldn't measure his love for me but it surely grows everyday. It always leaves me speechless. I can only hope to see his blue eyes staring at me while saying it. I have him and I never want to let go. Grab every opportunity as what they say.

Ephesians 5:16 (NLT)
"Make the most of every opportunity in these evil days."

"It's better to lose your pride to the one you love, than to lose the one you love because of pride. We spend too much time looking for the right person to love or finding fault with those we already love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we give."

~~~Cody and I always work on trials. We never let pride get in the way. We have learned that it is good to humble yourself not only to God, but also to your partner. As what is written in the Scriptures...

2 Peter 1:6-7 (TLB)
"...Learn to put aside your own desires so that you will become patient and godly, gladly letting GOD have His way with you. This will make possible the next step, which is for you to enjoy other people and to like them, and finally you will grow to love them deeply."

Jude 1:14-16 (NIV)
14Enoch, the seventh from Adam, prophesied about these men: "See, the Lord is coming with thousands upon thousands of his holy ones 15to judge everyone, and to convict all the ungodly of all the ungodly acts they have done in the ungodly way, and of all the harsh words ungodly sinners have spoken against him." 16These men are grumblers and faultfinders; they follow their own evil desires; they boast about themselves and flatter others for their own advantage.

~~~We don't want to be faultfinders. Instead...

Acts 13:15
..."Brothers, if you have a message of encouragement for the people, please speak."

And of course, true humility is a must...

1 Peter 5:6
"So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God, and at the right time he will lift you up in honor."

~~~God will truly bless your marriage and partnership.

Trials come because...

James 1:4 (NLT)
"...for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing."

James 1:4 (NIV)
"Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."

"When you truly care for someone, you don't look for faults, you don't look for answers, you don't look for mistakes. Instead, you fight the mistakes, you accept the faults, and you overlook the excuses."

~~~When you look for faults or mistakes, you become judgmental. And the Holy Bible says...

Matthew 7:2 (NIV)
"For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you."

Luke 6:37 (NIV)
"Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven."

Romans 2:1 (NIV)
"You, therefore, have no excuse, you who pass judgment on someone else, for at whatever point you judge the other, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgment do the same things."

When I feel weird, I ponder with love quotes, articles and books. They renew my mind every time. They remind me of how beautiful love is. Instead of watching and listening to negative news on TV, indulge in God's Word and love. They renew the mind. They enrich the heart. 1 Corinthians 13 works all the time.

Marriage before love? Marriage is a commitment. Commitment requires love. Before finding the person to love, marriage must come to mind. Why? Because you cannot love first then not continue into marriage. Love is not a game and so is marriage. You can love anyone but you cannot marry everyone. When I've seen the title of an article "Marriage before Love", I was amazed and I didn't even have to read it to know what's been said. It is simply to instill commitment before actually growing in love with someone. Without the idea of commitment, you will always try to give up when trials come. I've been there, done that. I was never proud to have so many ex-boyfriends. It was a shame for me. But then, I realized God has been so good and faithful to me that He has given me a wonderful boyfriend to start again til the end of time.

My Cody and I have a quote, "If you give up now, you will always give up for the rest of your life." An amazing revelation to me that we always use.

My mom is a perfect example of "marriage before love" because my dad is her first and last boyfriend and of all the sad trials they've been through (which my closest friends know of), they're still together for 24 years now. Whenever I think of giving up, I look at my mom. She's an amazing, living testimony of commitment and love. She always told herself before she met my dad that her first is her last. She always tells me that I shouldn't give up just because of petty things. And that I should always strive to make the relationship work. Amazingly, God gave me a boyfriend who thinks like my mom. hahaha! I would never want to love any man other than my Cody. I am willing to give everything I have. No room for giving up. God never gave up in the first place.

As how the song goes...

"Oh I wonder what God was thinking, when He created you.
I wonder if He knew everything I would need,
Because He made all my dreams come true.
When God made you, He must have been thinking about me."

~~~This is truly what I feel. You are my every dream come true. You are my every heart's desire. You are more than what I expected. You are my love.

Cody, whatever happens, there is nothing you do that will make me love you less. You are never inadequate because for me, you are my perfect man. No one else will do. I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH, MY ONE-AND-ONLY CODY!

MAY GOD'S GLORY SHINE IN THIS RELATIONSHIP!!! ALL THE GLORY BELONGS TO GOD ALONE!!!

P.U.S.H.

My boyfriend

(July 26,2008 9:06pm)
"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." ~Psalm 37:4

One of my favorite verses that really took a theme in my life. I asked but then He gave me more than I've asked for. I've realized it has been my biggest dream. He is my heart's desire. My dream come true. In every aspect. In every bit of him. My Cody.

Now, now, you might tell me that my heart's desire should be God. Just like what my Cody always say, it's a given and God knows our hearts' desires. We desire God first then He gives us a bonus. My big bonus is Cody. My lover, my best friend, my partner. He is always there through thick and thin. I can say now that he is really my partner.

To my everdearest honey Cody, I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH! HAPPY 3RD MONTHSARY, my darling!

ALL THE GLORY IN THIS RELATIONSHIP BELONGS TO GOD ALONE!!!

P.U.S.H.

A beautiful blessing..part 2

(June 26,2008 8:46pm)
Now I feel confident to say that he is my heart's desire. My GPW (God's Perfect Will) and GPC (God's Perfect Choice). Why?

1 Corinthians 13:1-8
1If I speak in the tongues[a] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,[b] but have not love, I gain nothing.

4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8Love never fails...

These verses always echo in my head ever since I've met this man. Also, I've had a revelation that was revealed to me twice now. It coincides with our love story. I'll just share one verse though.

Genesis 2:22
"...HE (God) brought her to the man."

A revelation I've asked from God. Every relationship has ups and downs and ours isn't exempted. I have learned a lot in just 6 months. This man, who I'll gladly name Cody (well his parents named him that hehehe), taught me a lot of things. He is not just after making up after every argument. He is not after my body or my face (Well, thats a bonus, as what he always says hahaha). He is after the growth of my character. He brings out the best in me. Insists on getting rid of my past struggles and helping me through them (by being hard on me hahaha jk). He is very loyal. God has given more revelations through other people but sorry I won't state everything in here anymore. hehehe!

Things I have learned:
1.) Love/Marriage knows nothing about giving up. Once you've opened your mind to giving up, it ruins the purpose of love. Giving up is running away. If you give up now, you'll always be giving up. Learn to stand strong with God's grace, hope, help and love. How will you learn to grow together if you give up and not work things together? One of the marriage problems is a soul who easily gives up. God will not give you a problem that you can't bear. He is always there. Do you think God ever gave up on us? No. Why? It is because of LOVE.

2.) Be selfless. Do not be a "me-monster". hehehe! This life is not about you. It is about our Creator and His plans and will for our lives. Focus on God and others (loved ones). Always pray and consider God's will and revelations. Just listen and obey. He won't fail you and He'll give you the best. There are good things but there are sad things too. These sad things are given to you for a purpose. You have a purpose in life. That is to live your life walking with God. Apart from Him, we are nothing. God gives us problems to make us tougher. Tougher and worthy of His Kingdom someday.

3.) We cannot give what we don't have. Know and recognize what you have and give it. What is love? God is love. 1 Corinthians 13. Now that you know, give it. Share it with someone.

4.) Do not instill fears to your partner. Only let him/her know about fear in God and everything will follow. If someone fears God then he/she will be afraid to hurt others coz that will displease God.

5.) Speak less. Stop saying negative things that will hurt the one you love.

6.) Expect less. If you have received God's revelations in your relationship then surrender it to Him. He knows what to do. Only expect more from God not from people. God is an all-knowing God. Nothing will ever escape Him. Focus on making yourself holy and worthy of God's love not on others' mistakes so you'll cease on expecting more from others. Disappointment comes to those who expect a lot from others. Expect and hope in God alone and He will never disappoint you.

7.) Surrender your past and present struggles to God. He is always working in you. He will change you in ways you can never imagine. Encourage your partner always and be his/her strength not his/her weakness. Well, God is our strength. Rely on God alone. He is always ever so faithful even if we aren't. Stand by His promises coz He is a Promise Keeper. Surrender your relationship to Him and He will bless everything you have. Put God first. Put God as the center of your relationship. Always ask Him what He wants to happen. Always pray for your partner. He loves it when you consider Him in every aspect of your life and you'll feel every blessing...every bit of His beautiful love for you!

2 Corinthians 12:9
9But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

7 is a perfect number so that's all for now. hehehe!

Testimony portion:
I've lost my internet connection for more than a month coz I've been moving from one place to another coz of certain circumstances. I have pulled out the internet antenna and cables so I had to schedule the installation from my ISP. This week, I have been praying that I will have my internet back today (June 26,2008 - Thursday) coz it is Cody and I's 2nd monthsary. I went to the wireless center last week but then the agent said I will be contacted for my schedule but no one called so I had to go back to the center. Someone called me that day (Tuesday). She said she'll try to send contractors Wednesday or maybe Thursday onwards. No one came yesterday so I called up the hotline again. The agent said my schedule was Friday. Pretty sad but I just accepted. Thursday which was today, while I was working, one unregistered phone number sent me a text message. One of the internet installers. Amazing! Thursday 10am. Just right after Cody sent me a message. Another answered prayer with a yes. Second one, I prayed for revelations just this week, He gave me enough at the very exact time I needed them. God used people such as my godmother and one of my faithful girl friends for those beautiful revelations based on God's Word. All the glory belongs to God alone! He is so amazing! He answers my prayers positively...believe and you'll get positive answered prayers too!

I must confidently say that God has blessed me with a very goodlooking boyfriend with blue eyes and a sexy body. hahaha! He also have the good character and attitude. Very wise convictions. Faithful to God. Good positive views on things. Wise thinking. Patient and loving heart. Prays a lot for me..for us! He cares so much about my emotional and spiritual growth. Very understanding. Hardworking. Knows his potentials and uses them. He does not idle with worthless things. Rational and stable emotions. He thinks about a bright future together. Very good with finances. Wise spender. Obedient (to me hahaha). Very humble spirit. Not easily influenced coz he believes that "bad company corrupts good character" (we love this verse hahaha). Very much single (but taken) and loyal to me. Last but the best, GOD completes him. GOD is his everything.

Thank God for my beautiful blessing named Cody Lee Howe!

To you honey, happy 2nd monthsary! My love for you grows stronger everyday. I only desire to love you more each day of my life. You are my answered prayer (with a yes, of course). I am always willing to work things out with you coz I can never see myself spending the rest of my life with any man but you. The only difference from my past relationships is that GOD has WILLingly given you to me. God bless you more! Let GOD always be the center of our relationship. May we always glorify GOD through our relationship.

To my readers, thank you for your faithfulness and interest in reading my blogs. You are all a blessing to me and to every person in your lives. God bless you all!

ALL THE GLORY BELONGS TO GOD ALONE!!!

A beautiful blessing

(April 30, 2008 8:29pm)
When I asked God what I should do about telling the world of what He had just given me, this is His answer, "Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give it to you. Do not let your hearts be troubled or afraid." ~John 14:27

You wonder why this was His answer? Because I was hesitant at first. I've thought about having it privately but then it's a testimony of God's unfailing love and grace.

I never expected but He gave me something more. I never asked but He gave me more than my heart's desires. I prayed for a soul and He gave me a soulmate.

God is so faithful. It is true that if you trust and let God do the rest, expect the unexpected. A dream come true.

God answers all prayers. The answer is either 'yes', 'no' or 'wait'.

"But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently." ~Romans 8:25

Patience is all it takes. In all aspects of life, we are asked to be still.

"The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still."~Exodus 14:14
"Now then, stand still and see this great thing the LORD is about to do before your eyes!"~1 Samuel 12:16
"Be still, for this is a sacred day. Do not grieve."~Nehemiah 8:11
"Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes."~Psalm 37:7
"Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth."~Psalm 46:10
"Be still before the LORD, all mankind, because he has roused himself from his holy dwelling."~Zechariah 2:13

Our GOD is bigger than anything in this world. He can do everything for you. Even the most impossible things. It is not the ability to wait but the attitude while you wait.

I do not even think I deserve anything much better than what I had before because of all the ungodly acts I have done in the past. It is true that God has us in the palm of His hands. If you fail, He will pull you up. Be faithful.

Isaiah 40:30-31
30Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;

31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

God has led me all my life (Genesis 48:15). I lived in sin. Transformed by God's grace. Multitude of blessings pouring down from heaven. There is one beautiful blessing that outstands all the blessings received. What is it?

To be continued...